I'm excited ...

... but need to calm down otherwise I'll be a gibbering wreck.  The reason for the excitement?  I booked a holiday yesterday but it's not going to be until October 2015 (hence, if I don't calm down I'll be a gibbering wreck).  It's to celebrate mine and OH's Pearl (30th) wedding anniversary.  We'd thought seriously about a cruise from Southampton, across the pond and up the Eastern Seaboard of the good ol' US of A.  He's always wanted to go to New York.  Personally the States have never appealed to me with the exception of seeing the fall colours in New England and I think the cruise is timed to coincide with that.  It calls at NY, Boston, Halifax and so on then back to Southampton.   I'd accept that, as most of the time you'd be on the ship - it's a 3 week cruise - but, on reflection, although it appeals to both of us in one way or another I wondered just how much OH would get out of it.  He'd be fine on board but I don't think he'd get much out of the shore visits.  He can't get on coaches (being a wheelie is a real pain sometimes) so organised trips from the ship wouldn't work for him although I guess we could get a car/cab and have local drivers take us round ... at a cost.  There wouldn't be much, if any, change out of £10k.  Anyway, a couple of weeks ago we had a mailing from the hotel group we stayed with for eldest's wedding in Cyprus back in 2011.  They're opening a brand new hotel, on the same lines as the Agia Napa hotel but this one's in Paphos.  I visited Paphos briefly and liked it.  It's a different part of the island so opens up more trips out so, on the spur of the moment yesterday, we decided to book 11 nights there and the deed was done.  We're, or rather I, am going to hire a car as driving is easy there and it works out cheaper to hire a car for the duration than to pay for return transfers from airport and I can get OH out to see some of what he missed because of not going out while there before.  We can sort excursions, maps and guides out before we go *big grin*  EXCITED!

Bit of catch up on the personal front. Our beautiful eldest granddaughter qualified as a Beauty Therapist in July. I'd helped out by being a guinea pig for her end of year assessments for facials, manicures and pedicures. I left the waxing for her Mum's enjoyment - ROFL! She's got herself a part time job in a salon and is earning a bit extra by doing treatments privately. She's back at college in September - she's going for her NVQ level 3 which encompasses, amongst other things epilation, facial and body electrotherapy treatments and massage. I'm waiting *big grin*  When she's let loose on the public I'll be a willing guinea pig.  She's also passed her theory driving test and now has her practical to look forward to.  Life seems good for her at the moment.

Graduation

Diploma proper

The past week has seen me at exercise class - yep, I go to a weekly exercise class and have been for over a year now. I'm hoping that with that and the weight loss my lung capacity may improve.  If not improve, delay the problem getting any worse. At least I'll have tried. Shopping delivery was had, along with other boring, mundane, run of the mill daily 'stuff' and a very enjoyable Saturday with eldest and our daughter-in-law and her parents - barbecuing!  Bang went any weight loss this week, or so I thought but .... another 1½lb off so I'm very happy - LOL!

There's been a mini change on the blog - an updated photo - lol!  Thought the other was getting a tad out of date.  The new one was taken the weekend of the Great British Craft Festival 2014 so it's just a week old *grin*  Cally, Kim and myself all visited.  Cally and myself for the whole weekend, including the Friday workshops and Kim for the workshops and a brief visit to the show on Saturday morning.  That was when this photo was taken ... at Kim's encouragement, only for us to realise, too late, that she'd stepped back so wasn't in it! Thanks Kim but it would have been a lot better had you been in it as well *grin*

Workshops were interesting - 

3 cards in a HunkyDory one, hosted by Rebecca Seddon.  2 I made but one is still to be put together ...

Still to be embellished ...

2nd workshop was with Mel Heaton.  A frame decorated with flowers and every flower started out as a circle.  This was our favourite workshop of the day.  I think I may just take the back off and use on a card, with a greeting in the middle.

3rd workshop was with Ali Reeve from Clevercut/Stamps Away.  We guessed this one could be messy, just by who was running it as Cally and I had been on her very first workshop so, I took some gloves with me.  We were right, but it was fun *grin*  

Wooden frame, painted, mica'd and the small canvas design done in string, covered in foil and then painted etc. (There's a granddaughter's 18th birthday next month)

The final workshop of the day, hosted by The Dreamees - Carol and Hayley Bignall - and our least favourite although the finished product is quite cute.  Template, already printed and cut for us so we just had to put together and make oval spiral flowers.  Not sure what I'm going to be doing with it.

Looking forward to next year now and thinking we might have some more friends for company next time - LOL!

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A quick catch up ...

... and a decision.  I've never really intended neglecting the blog in the way I have for as long as I have but somehow, when there's nothing of worth to blog about every day nothing gets done at all *sad*  I've decided I'm going to try and post at least once a week as that way I may have something worth blogging about but it's not so bad if I've not.  It will continue to be a mix of personal and crafty but probably more of the former (although I can catch up a bit from over the months - *LOL!*)  I'm going to try a regular post on a .... Monday?  We'll see how it goes and, I know it's not Monday but going to try and start it now *grin*

I've mentioned one major event that's happened this year - the transformation of our living room.  This followed the bathroom to wetroom makeover at the end of 2012 and the boiler and living room fire replacement last year.  Bedroom doesn't need doing (phew) but the kitchen needs a major declutter and deep clean.  That is the next job.  Could do with a new kitchen, if I'm honest, but not sure I could put up with another few weeks of disruption.  7 weeks for the bathroom refit and 7 weeks for the living room/hallway in less than 2 years is enough .... for now!

Earlier this year there was another major turning point - we learnt that OH's cancer had spread.  We knew it had been found in a lymph node when he was diagnosed back in 2010 but now it's spread to the base of his bladder and 'a spot' has been found in a pelvic bone.  He's had his medication revised and he's also having 4 weekly injections (more like infusions) in the local chemo suite.  It's not chemo but it's something that is designed to help strengthen his bones to try to alleviate the cancer spreading any further.  Apparently prostate cancer is slow growing and they've assured us that the prognosis is still for a normal life span - however long that may be for an already 74 year old, despite him only looking in his late 50s/early 60s! Unfortunately the side effects of this infusion are - well, were - horrendous!  After the first couple he lost 2 weeks of the 4 but the last one he had, although there were some, they weren't as bad.  Could be because he'd actually spoken to somebody about it and medication was prescribed to help.  How long these will last for we have no idea but we know he's to have them, at least, to the end of October.  I guess they then judge if they're being useful or not and then make the decision as to whether to carry on or stop.  We'll see.

I joined in with friends on our own personal 'fat club'.  I only joined to keep them company, not expecting anything to happen but I've gone from being just into the obese BMI range to bordering on the normal in just over 12 weeks.  Dead chuffed I am.  I'm now the lightest I've been in around 20 years and not much to go until I'm what I was 30 years ago.  I'll stick at that *grin*  I think, if I lose any more than that I'd look ill and I'd rather look well instead of gaunt - lol!

A bit of craft?  I few weeks ago I attended an all day workshop held by Clair to celebrate her 40th birthday. Here's some of the cards I made from that workshop.  There were 12 in total - I'll show a few at a time *grin* Have to say, we didn't get all 12 made on the day.  I managed to make 4 and prepped the rest, finishing them at home.

Definitely a Stampin' Up doily die.  Ink sponged from centre out to colour delicately.
SU Butterfly punches - the rest is reasonably obvious.

Pretty sure the background stamp and the poppy stamp were Stampin' Up but don't hold me to that :)
I coloured with Prismacolor pencils

Spellbinders Bitty Blossoms for the flowers.
Heartfelt Creations greeting stamp.
Not sure on the embossing folder, border or the leaf die.

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Well, what can I say???

... not a lot really but I'm still alive and I guess that's the main thing :)

5 months on and life is starting to settle down a little.  The living room has been totally refurbished and the house is gradually getting back to it's former self - former being before taking on the care of Mum and Dad, looking after them and their home and neglecting mine.  It took a long time to get into a mess.  It's taking a long time to reclaim it but progress has been made and is obvious.  The living room is totally different.  It's now modern, fresh, light and airy and mainly uncluttered.  Easy to keep clean and tidy ... for now, at least. The hospice shop has gained from our de-cluttering, even to the extent that at one point there was too much for me to deliver so they collected in their van.  Next major job is to start reclaiming and de-cluttering the kitchen.  Once that's done there's one room left downstairs but in the meantime I've also been working on clearing unwanted crafty stuff.  

Facebook selling pages - and eBay - are sooo useful - lol!  A lot of stuff has gone and, although most has gone in a brand new condition for a lot less than it originally cost, at least I'm claiming space back and putting something back into the coffers.  It's pointless hanging on to stuff I'm unlikely to use.

How about some photographic evidence of progress?

Pics of the living room taken while the new fireplace was being installed last summer but before the furniture disappeared - and yes, it's in turmoil but pretty much how we were living from then on.  

The, initially expensive, french polished, wooden, Parker Knoll furniture was 'sold' on eBay before Christmas.  I say sold but it was effectively given away.  We got less than £3 for 3 pieces and the large wall display unit sold for just £1.30!  At least we didn't have to pay for it to be taken away as we did with the suite - which went to landfill!  Couldn't even give that away - lol!

... and how it is now :D  Nice, bright, light, airy and easy to maintain.  We love it :D  

Best of all, the furniture didn't cost an arm and a leg and I'll have no regrets when we're tired of it and want to replace!

Quite a lot has gone on in last few months as well and catch up time is called for .... again - but that will be for another day - lol!

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Long time ...

... no blog!  Not that there's been nothing to blog about.  There has.  Just not done it.  Left the blog on a downer and it's been pretty much up and down since then - normal, I guess - lol!

I know it's late but Happy Christmas and a very Happy New Year - lol!

I've actually been busy putting together photo books.  There were some good offers on over Christmas and New Year so I wanted to take advantage of it and set to work.  Finally got my 2011 year book done and followed that pretty quickly with the 2013 one so I'm up to date from the year I did the first one - 2010.  I plan, if I live long enough, to go back in years with the pics and hope that the pics stir the memory so I can do a little bit of journalling.  Yep, they're not just photos - I treat them a bit like scrapbooks, I guess.  I've edited and deleted photos for each year of the books and I plan on putting them on archival disc and making a pocket in the books for the discs.  There are a lot more photos for each year than made to books so these will be there for future generations, if they so wish.  Don't think I'll ever get them all done, especially not the photos before digital but there are loads which might, or might not, make sense to somebody somewhere down the line.  If I can note on the back of some of them who, what, where I guess that'll be a good thing but will I ever get it done?  Who knows.  I'm now planning on doing 2014 book as the year progresses but not made a start on that yet - we're in the middle of a building site!

We've been living out of boxes for about 3 months now, having got rid of our wooden living room furniture but the workmen are now in and the place has been gutted.  The sofa and armchairs are going to landfill on Tuesday.  Couldn't give them away which is a shame as there's still life in them and the sofa, in particular, is still in good condition but we're tired of it and it has to go.  Better to go now as we're having new flooring throughout.  Not just the living room but the hall, bedroom and study as well.  Laminate flooring and it's easier with as little furniture to move as possible.  There are enough boxes that will need to be moved around and bedroom furniture - which isn't going anywhere.  I'm photographing the different stages but not downloaded any to the lappy yet.  Anyway, it'll be good when it's done and we've bought new furniture.  At least, it had better be!

That's as it is now.  I'll catch up some time soon :)

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Not a good day ...

... and will be even worse tomorrow.  Today is the start of a bad memory.  Today is the 2nd anniversary of being told that Dad was being put onto end of life care and it would be hours, rather than days.  It was the day I knew was coming, if I'm honest, from the day he was taken back to hospital, having been discharged and sent home too soon, previously.  I'd asked the medics a week earlier if he was dying.  It seemed obvious to me that he was.  They didn't deny it but they said there was hope.  There was no hope.   He was given 9 blood transfusions in 11 days.  There was something seriously wrong.  He went downhill so quickly.  It was a peptic ulcer that burst.  He bled to death.  We spent the evening with him.  Did he know we were there?  I don't know, but I felt that he did.  I phoned my brother to tell him to get there.  'I'll call tomorrow after' ... can't remember after what.  I shut down.  I just told him that Dad might not be there tomorrow.  He wasn't!  My brother never did see him in hospital.  He told me that the man he knew as Dad had died years ago.  That man had gone for me as well.  I was his 'mum', his 'wife', anything but his daughter in those last years,  after Mum died.  He was still my Dad.  I didn't visit because it was my 'duty'.  I visited and cared because he was my Dad!  Not the Dad he once was, perhaps, but the Dad that he became.  2 years ago, early tomorrow morning, 14th December, he died.  6 weeks short of his 90th birthday and 4 weeks short of becoming a great-great grandad.  Memories of him and Mum are strong right now.  Not the good memories - the one's I'd rather not have and the ones I have to bear alone.

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Headache ...

... do one!  I've had it all day and I'm fed up.  Went to my exercise class this morning not expecting to be able to get through it.  I did but only just however, came home and felt rough.  Cough is not getting any better and, although I live with one, this one is different to my norm. I feel sort of coldified (new word) it feels different and chest is very tight.  Thought I might be going down with a chest infection so phoned doc who's prescribed antibiotics and a course of steroids.  I've collected them but going to hold off of taking them for a day or 2 as I don't want to take them if I don't have to.  I'll see how things go.  Back when I had my last spirometry in the summer I was asked if I wanted a rescue pack.  Haven't had, or needed one, before so I declined.  I'm thinking it might not be such a bad idea for the winter.  I'm getting older and this COPD isn't going to go away but I do want to do what I can to delay it progressing - which is what the exercise is all about, to be honest.  Early night I think and see how things are in the morning.  Got a busy weekend so need to feel a bit more alive - lol!

Last card I've got made from the Christmas workshop.  I lied when I said I'd made all but 2 of them.  I've 3 still to make, or at least, in process of being made.  I've done bits of all 3 but not one is finished.  Not sure when they will be either.  Anyways, here's the last of the Christmas ones ... for now.

Papermania designer paper
Lilli of the Valley image & sentiment stamps
- Wink of Stella clear brush tip on the cuffs/hem of jacket , bobble and trim of hat.
Gems

Can't go and leave this post without making comment on the loss of an amazing, inspirational man and probably the most influential person of the 20th Century.  Nelson Mandela died yesterday evening, aged 95.  So many people owe their lives, as they are today, to this man.  He opened people's eyes and made them more aware that there is more to the human race than the colour of their skin.  The man done GOOD!

RIP 

Nelson Mandela

1918-2013

The world was a better place for having you in it and would be a whole lot better if there were more like you.

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Done! ...

... at least, it had better be!  Replacement ordered for the Christmas present that I ordered in October and that hasn't arrived.  I've heard from the company I had the order with.  They've accepted the cancellation (not that they had much choice, to be honest) and will be crediting me. Not sure how this credit will show yet but it's looking as though they credit my account and then I have to apply for an actual refund.  I asked for a refund from the outset but I'm sure the card company will ensure that's what I get.

I've sold more unwanted bits and yesterday there was an offer too good to refuse on a new machine.  The Xcut Xpress, which has ticked all my boxes with just one reservation, was on offer for one day only at a price I'd have been mad to let go, so I ordered it.  The good thing is that it's actually cost me nothing as I've used the money from my sales of unwanted crafty stuff to buy it.  Money previously spent so it's not draining my current bank balance - lol!  MInd you, I spent a lot more than I'm selling for and, bearing in mind it's all brand new, unused ... just old and mostly discontinued/retired ... I'm practically giving it away.

All mailings that needed mailing are either done or ready to go to the post office so I've only the present wrapping to do, relevant bags filled and I can call it finished until the day.  Got quite a busy time between now and then though so perhaps it's just as well I'm quite well organised this year.

Hubby took me to pick up a new satnav yesterday.  My old one wore itself out some while ago and it's replacement - hubby's old one - wasn't much better.  It didn't seem to like the south.  Worked fine north of Watford and did well in Wales.  Wasn't so keen on getting us out of Wales ... or out of my own area - lol!  Anyways, got a brand spanking new one care of Tesco Boost.  First one was named Boris, 2nd one never worked well enough for me to bother about naming.  Wonder what this one'll be called?

Now for another couple of cards from the Christmas workshop day (still got 2 to make - lol!) ....

Imagination snowflake mask
Hobbycraft sentiment stamp
Gems

White card
Stampin' Up Lovely as a Tree stamp
White embossing powder
Stampin' Up sentiment stamp
Acetate window

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Feeling old ...

... eldest son is 41 today!  Mind you, his son makes me feel even older when his birthday comes round.  He's not long had his 22nd birthday *scary*

Had a busy few days but apart from the 1st Christmas present I ordered back in October I've got them all now.  Contacted the card company about the 'missing' one.  I bought this particular present on the understanding it was being delivered from Milton Keynes.  Seems I was being delusional, despite what the website said as I was notified a couple of weeks after ordering it that it had been 'shipped internationally'  I've been kept informed all the way down the line, even to the point of being told that the shipment had gone missing after it had arrived at the 'local depot' and now my order has been 'locked'!  I knew I wasn't dealing with a UK company but only ordered because I thought it was coming from a UK warehouse.  Card company are raising a chargeback dispute (oh how familiar that sounds, having worked for a major card company for a few years) and I've emailed the company to tell them what to do with their order - lol!  Unfortunately what I ordered is no longer available anywhere else at a reasonable price so I'll have to get the 'upgraded' version which is a bit bigger than was really wanted but there's not much I can do about it now.

I've also been busy photographing and listing 'stuff' on eBay.  Loadsa crafty 'stuff' I don't want, will never use now - despite all good intentions.  Anyone interested can look HERE :)  I'm likely to be adding other 'stuff' over time *wink*

OK, a couple more cards from the Christmas workshop.  I've still not got round to making the remaining 2.  Not much chance at the moment either - ho, hum :)

Round card blank cut with Spellbinders nesties (I cut across straight to stop it rolling.
No idea on the white mat die
Think the deer is a Tattered Lace - not sure. Just know it was a nightmare to cut.  This was the 4th attempt.  The rest went in the bin. (Not impressed with Tattered Lace at all, I have to say.)
Gems

Designer paper, Papermania
Stamps are both Stampin' Up.
Gingerbread man was cut with a matching die/framelit.
Ribbon

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A couple more ...

... from the Christmas workshop. A bit later than anticipated as I've asked a question and waiting a reply which doesn't appear to be forthcoming.  Nothing to do with the cards but relevant to this post.  Will post anyway ....
I loved the diversity of the designs Clair came up with.  I so wish I had the imagination.

An 8 x 8 inch (20 x 20 cm) card.
Imagination embossing folder
No idea whose die or stamp
Spellbinders Shapeabilities - 2013 Snowflake Pendant
Gems

An A6 card
Woodware Clear Stamp - Snowflakes & Sparkles
No idea re the Let it Snow stamp or the plaque die
White embossing powder
White ribbon
Candi made with a punch and matching card scraps.

I've started the photo book of mine and Jackie's holiday to Italy earlier this year.  Should have started it sooner but I'd already done 3, or is that 4, photo books this year and I kind of ran out of steam.  It takes a while to put the holiday ones together (it takes a while to put any together if I'm honest) as I research the places we visit so I can put a little info in the book and I also like to tell little 'stories'.  I keep a diary (I know, I'm sad) on a daily basis while we're away to remind me of what we got up to when the memory of the laughs we have start to fade - lol!  Have to say I love doing the books but I do have to be in a 'creative' mood to do them as I don't just dump photos in and hope for the best.  I can take a whole evening just doing 4 to 6 pages, or less.  Layout is everything and the choice of photos is hard when there's so many to choose from.  I prepare the books and then wait for a deal to come along.  I never, ever pay full price for a book and I never buy in advance and put myself under pressure to 'perform'.  Did it once, never again.  Gave me a month and I went to the wire.  Hated it.  Much prefer taking my time and there's always an offer round the corner *big grin*

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A few crafty ...

... posts, I think.  I mentioned in the last post that there'd been a Christmas workshop a couple of weeks ago.  I've made 10 of the 12 cards.  Not found time to make the last 2 yet.  Here's a couple of them ...

SU Santa Stamp coloured with Promarkers
Furry bits coloured with Wink of Stella clear glitter brush pen - doesn't show though
Spellbinders die for backing ... I think.
SU tag designer paper, button and silver twine.
Colours are more vibrant in real life and also in my file photo.  Don't know why they're not here :(

All Spellbinders dies for card base and matting and layering.
Spellbinders lattice die.
Marianne Poinsettia die.
Red velvet self adhesive velvet paper stuck to card for poinsettias
Papermania shimmer dome stickers for poinsettia middle.
No idea what stamp.

On Saturday I went and saw the youngsters in their Christmas show.  They did Annie this year.  Unfortunately we weren't allowed to take any photos due to 'data protection'.  It's the first year we've not been allowed to take pics.  Such a shame.  Family photo albums will not be the same any more.  So many of little ones childhood moments going unrecorded nowadays.  Memories don't always last without a prompt, especially when you're young and you grow old.  I know.  Mum got rid of so many pictorial memories that  I'm sure would have jogged a few from my childhood.  The show was lovely.  Just wish I'd got some photos for my 2013 year book and I'm sure their Mum would have liked some to send to great-gran in Aus! *sad*

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Oh dear ...

... all good intentions out of the window.  2 weeks without a post.  Not good enough but, in my defence, I've been quite busy.  Only quite though - lol!

The ring finally arrived and it is lovely but the service was awful.  Anyway, it is here now and will be a surprise on Christmas day.  All bar the youngest granddaughter's Christmas presents have been bought or are on order so I should be able to start wrapping soon.

There was a family photo shoot on 9th November.  Unfortunately one of our daughter's-in-law was ill and couldn't make it so it turned out a bit of a damp squib however there were photos taken of all the grandchildren together so at least that was achieved.  Only managed to find 10 photos that were of any worth though and not really the one that I wanted.  Cost a lot to end up with pretty much only one photo we wanted, although we had one taken with our sons as well so I guess that's 2 photos.  The only thing I can think we can do is to try to insert the d-i-l by photo editing.  No idea how to do that.  I can take things out of photos but never had to put anything in.  Had to talk the photographer into letting me have photos on a disc but he's only going to do them so they come out as 8x6 inch photos so not going to be big enough to have a decent canvas done.  As I say, a bit of a damp squib but a largish hole in the pocket for not what was really wanted  *sad*

Back in the early part of September we went to meet, for the very first time, a new found cousin of OH's.   Last week her daughter phoned to tell us she had died suddenly.  We were going to see her again after Christmas.  It seems our next meeting will be her funeral.  So sad, having just found one another after all the years of never knowing each existed.  So many years lost and wasted but both her daughter and us are pleased we got to meet.  We also met her sister who we had no idea about until that day.  We will meet her brother at the funeral.  2 more cousins OH had no idea existed until recently.  RIP Anna - it was a privilege to have met you.

L-R: Barbara, Anna , Jan and OH.

Saturday was a lovely day.  Busy, manic but a real fun day.  It was a day of crafting arranged by Clair of Valentines.  A Christmas card workshop day with a carvery lunch, Secret Santa and 'snatch' raffle.  12 cards to make but only managed to make 5.  Prepped the rest and took them home to finish.  I've 3 to go and then they can be photographed so watch this space.

I've joined a few selling groups on Facebook.  I'm trying to sell some of my unwanted craft bits.  I have a lot of 'stuff'.  There's a lot I know I'll never use.  Most is brand new ... in fact I'd go so far as to say that ALL of it is brand new!  A few bits have gone *happy face*

And on top of all that - just to bring the last couple of weeks up to date - we found the guys that did a lot of work on our house years ago.  Wish we'd found them last year.  We'd have avoided the fiasco of our bathroom.  Still, it is what it is but they're now going to do the rest of the work we want done.  Most All of it was done by them in the first place so they will be undoing and redoing what they've done previously.  We've chosen the flooring.  They're sorting it, the underlay and trim out.  We've bought the wallpaper for the lounge.  The hallway is going to be painted.  A new ceiling fan/light is on order.  We need to speak to the electrician they use.  We want a new TV and have it wall mounted.  Only want a new one as it will need to be a slightly larger screen.  We want the cables and wiring put into the wall though.  Don't want trailing cables.  We're getting used to living out of boxes.  I don't want us to get used to it as nothing will happen if we do .....

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